The annual event for Altera Community Team - Amazing Race is finally wrapped up. I had been busy and stress for it. Finally, it is over. I felt like completing a milestone in my 2008. Throughout the preparation and the execution of the event, I always have this thought - I should have done it in the other way, then, the output would be better. Doubts have existed against myself many times during the process. When I have a deeper thought of this silent self-reflecting, I found myself actually had been caught up in this same routine throughout my life.
while (there_is_doubt|there_is_mistake){"There is my restless mind, seeking for betterment.";
}
Yes, I am trapped in repent state even at this moment. Scenarios from yesterday are still desperately analyzed. I am still hopelessly thinking ways in perfecting yesterday. It is pathetic to attempt to repair bygone. The impossibility of doing anything for yesterday makes me feeling miserable.
Donkoi kept telling me this, "Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned for next time execution." It is so "ngam thian". This is exactly what I need to stop myself from being negative. There is not a single chance in life that you get to turn back time. You can only keep on living with the learned lesson and perform better the next time.
Talking about going back to the past to fix the mistakes, I thought of a Japanese drama that I just watched. Though the guy is given many chances to go back to his past, he is still not able to confess to his childhood friend. The girl is ended up marrying another guy. The moral of the drama - no past mistakes are meant to be amend no matter how hard you try. I just have to look forward for another opportunity and make sure I am able to avoid the previous mistake. I just have to stop being upset.